Posted in Sunday Night Song

Goodbye To You

Instructions to truly resonate with this post:

1. Listen to the song before reading.

2. Listen to the song while reading.

3. Listen to the song after reading.

I hope this song becomes a part of your journey in life!

I first heard this song when I was about 11. I remember dedicating this song to a grade school crush who was graduating and who broke my heart for not liking me back. I was soooooo dramatic.

This song has always had a special place in my heart. It reminds me of the things and people I want to say goodbye to.

I want to say goodbye to my past beliefs, broken friendships, mistakes and regrets. I want to say goodbye to the old me.

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems that I can’t live a day without you
Closin’ my eyes, and you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light
But it’s not right

This particular lyrics, in this season of my life, reminds me of the religion and belief I used to have. Saying goodbye to everything I believed to be true, is hard. I loved being an SDA but I have to admit that I was blinded and I need to move on to discover the truth.

And so… I say goodbye. In order for me to survive and grow, I need to say goodbye to you.

I guess in various seasons of our lives, we say goodbye to different things or people. I was 11 saying goodbye to a crush and it never crossed my mind that a decade after, I’ll be saying goodbye to everything that I knew.

Posted in Rachel's Journal 🌼

Sunday Thoughts & Blues

Before the pandemic started, every Sunday morning, as a family we would go out for breakfast, then have groceries after. Our favorite places to dine were Bluejay Coffee & Co., Bo’s Coffee and occasionally, Coffee Project.

This Sunday, we got to have the same routine except for the presence of my Dad who chose to stay at home because he can’t stand wearing a mask.

The ambiance in Coffee Project oozes with aesthetics and privilege? I mean most people who enter have the stance and confidence of rich people. I usually feel uncomfortable but I just try to focus on the pleasing interior.

The food and drinks here are good but a bit expensive.

I ordered a Caramel Latte.

For breakfast, I ordered Chicken Parmigiana with Hot Pepper Rice which I forgot to take a picture of.

While waiting for our orders to arrive, I glanced around to see that almost everyone was looking down on their phones. It got me thinking, “what was it like for people before, who didn’t have such technology? what did they do in a coffee shop while waiting for their drinks to arrive?”

I thought that maybe they talked a lot or if they were alone, brought a book with them to entertain themselves or maybe they just sat and think or observe.

I didn’t want to use my phone and in front of me about 5 feet away, a boy about 12 years old was sitting down with earphones on and so I did the same since my mom and brother were not in the mood for talking. And I reflected upon the book I read last night.

I remember how last year I would sit in those same spots and worry about the upcoming Monday were I had to face survival in an office setting. Now, I’m so grateful I can breathe easily without the anxiety of work brooding around.

After our fancy and expensive breakfast, (😢😅) we went to a family friend for some errands to make. It’s so weird to think we seldom see the people close to us anymore.

After our fast adventure, we headed to the grocery store, S&R. I only took one photo and an unflattering one as well.

I was caught up in talking to my brother as well as looking for something to buy. I got some few essentials.

It was a normal day but I just wanted to share what life was like today. The weather is cool and cloudy, the cars are few, and the day is peaceful.

I’m so glad that amidst the pandemic, we still get to have good days.

While sometimes, I feel like it’s safe to go out, I know it isn’t. Our enemy, the virus is still roaming around and we need to practice caution and care.

My heart goes out to all the families who have lost loved ones in this pandemic. Truly, you’ll never know what it feels like `til it happens to you. While life must go on, I hope we can all be sensitive, learn to take precautions, and keep in mind those who are fighting this virus and the frontliners risking their lives to help.

Stay safe!