After almost a week of staying at home, I went out to buy fruits and vegetables today.
It’s the only time I could dress up, so I carefully picked a pink t-shirt and comfy jeans. I wanted to put on makeup just because I miss it but I changed my mind since I will be wearing a mask anyway.
On the way home, a familiar face told me, “Wow you gained A LOT of weight!” To which I replied with a nervous laughter.
Discomfort lodged between my mind and I came home looking for validation from my boyfriend.
As I entered the bathroom to clean myself up, I remembered how 2 years ago when I lost 10 kg, people kept commenting I lost A LOT of weight. They didn’t like when I lost weight, and they don’t like it when I gain weight too.
The truth as I have realized, is if we keep depending our worth or how good we look on other people’s opinions we will be swayed…like a wave, blown and tossed by the wind. (I borrowed some words from the book of James haha) Point is you need to learn to be secure in who you are. Our weights will continue to fluctuate overtime. Will our happiness and self-contentment do the same?
Right now, I don’t feel healthy since I’ve been consuming junk food & sweets and sleeping late as well. So this may serve as a wake up call to eat healthy and be consistent with exercise.
There will always be insensitive people who make rude comments about weight. We can’t escape them. But now that we are in quarantine, we have some time to avoid them for awhile.
Therefore let us build up our self-image by accepting our flawed bodies, by taking care of it and by being secure in ourselves that no matter what other people may say about our weight, we can happily respond with a genuine smile & two words: so what?
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